Lately, living with Beosig has been...well, quite the challenge. It is much as it was years ago. Angry all the time, moody, and heaven forbid anyone suggest they don't completely understand everything that was discussed during a conversation, because then the accusations start flying. There's nothing quite like living with someone and having to walk on eggshells all the time.
Last time I confronted him on the issue he took off and ran to the store for a smoke after 6 weeks of going without. I will NOT tolerate that again, so let's just say confrontation is not on the agenda. I did ask what the reason was though, and got something about stress from school and work and fitting everything that needs done into the time available. Well join the freakin' club! You don't see me flying off the handle about it do you?
With a baby on the way, all I can think about is that he needs to GROW UP and learn some way to handle his stress other than taking it out on those around him. It just puts everyone on edge and makes me want to stay as far away from him as possible until things blow over. I do not want our kid to learn that is an acceptable way to handle the need to blow off steam. It's time to learn to set an example and there's no better time to learn that than now.
Isn't it interesting that he frets over getting his homework done for class but then rushes off to his games like it's the end of the world if he misses one. Do I get any priority on that time schedule? Hell no.
I can't tell you the last time we did something together other than ride to/from work and sleep in the same bed. Prior to this attitude change I had been hoping for some time with him, but now I'm having second thoughts...like how I can better spend my one weekend off this month to avoid having contact with him.
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